Showing posts with label self-doubt. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self-doubt. Show all posts

Monday, February 2, 2015

Self-Criticism in February - Poem by Robinson Jeffers


Jeffers' home in Carmel, Calif.
This is a re-post based on the season. The first time I posted it, it was because a Yevtushenko poem had brought it to mind. This time it's the turning of the calendar finally from what always seems to me to be the longest month, into the month of the title. I've always loved this title. And in the poem, I like that the speaker seems to win the argument with himself. I love the accusation "It is certain you have loved the beauty of storm disproportionately." The poem is from the 1930s, but surely like Jeffers' "present time," ours can seem as if it is "founded on violence" as well.

Self-Criticism in February
by Robinson Jeffers

The bay is not blue but sombre yellow
With wrack from the battered valley, it is speckled with violent foam heads
And tiger-striped with long lovely storm-shadows.
You love this better than the other mask; better eyes than yours
Would feel the equal beauty of the blue.
It is certain you have loved the beauty of storm disproportionately.
But the present time is not pastoral, but founded
On violence, pointed for more massive violence: perhaps it is not
Perversity but need that perceives the storm-beauty.
Well, bite on this: your poems are too full of ghosts and demons,
And people like phantoms -- how often life's are --
And passion so strained that the clay mouths go praying for destruction --
Alas, it is not unusual in life;
To every soul at some time. But why insist on it? And now
For the worst fault: you have never mistaken
Demon nor passion nor idealism for the real God.
Then what is most disliked in those verses
Remains most true. Unfortunately. If only you could sing
That God is love, or perhaps that social
Justice will prevail. I can tell lies in prose.
 

Monday, March 24, 2014

Slowly twisting in the wind - Lines from the Singing Loins

The Singing Loins are a great folk duo from the Medway Delta in Kent, SE England. Some of their records have been produced by Billy Childish. They create great harmonies and play many serious songs ( Video: "Hauling in the Slack"), but they are also funny, and even in the song these lines are from, all about self-doubt, they end up laughing. Anyway, this is how I always feel whenever it's time to write, especially the last few stanzas and the wind-twisting thing:

Little Devil Doubt by the Singing Loins

Little devil doubt
I'll cast you out
Tomorrow...
For today, you've ruined me (sic) life.

Little devil doubt
I'll cast you out,
Today....
For tomorrow, I've work to do.

Little devil doubt
though I've not sinned
I'm slowly twisting in the wind.
I wish my friends would all come by
to pull my leg and help me die.

Slowly twisting in the wind
Slowly twisting in the wind

Little devil doubt
I'll cast you out
In a while...
For now, I'm paralyzed.

Little devil doubt
I'll cast you out
this minute...
Before you hang me high.

Slowly twisting in the wind
Slowly twisting in the wind
Slowly twisting in the wind
Slowly twisting in the wind...